Friday, October 21, 2005

dearest all,

have you ever wonder what or who are you actually studying so hard for? getting the brilliant As for? this question have been crossing and recrossing my mind alot these few days, which leads me into this deep analysis. i admit i get frustrated over my garbage grades. yes i do cry and i do go into depression or some might say PMS-ing mode. i've been thinking alot and i recently jotted down a few points on 'WHY am i studying so hard'.

1. to clinch a good opportunity in the media industry.
2. do my parents and teachers proud.
3. console myself that i'm not that illiterate after all.
4. cause everyone is doing that and i also have to feed my reluctant soul.
5. i don't get any other satisfaction other than 'i've completed 3 chapters of Biology today.'

ok. i want to be a famous journalist in the future cause i wanna earn big and make a mark for myself - with money i can do almost anything, money equals power. that WAS how i thought. i scorn at it now. God says stop lusting after Wordly Pocessions cause in the end it doesn't even matter. we should be spending more time with God and sad to say because of our academic life, we've been putting God at 2nd place. i've heard people skipping church to mug for the next day's paper. we neglect our love for God, we have let him down. when we get back our papers, how many of us actually spend a minute or so thanking God for it, and how many of us whine, complain about how low our grades are and further seek on a journey to scrape more marks. people, spend some time honouring God. our academic life means nothing in the spiritual world. it's just a Boast on your vast knowledge. it might be a form of a certificate; to claim more Wordly Pocessions than most others. you see, we need God more than our acadamic pursuits.

i still remember how doreen use to tell me about her slipping grades and how sick of studying she was. maybe if were to just LET GO and literally GET A LIFE yeah, we wouldn't be fretting over your results now and she would have been spared for being so upset. all her results don't mean anything to her now. her As in english are not taken note of in heaven. and her Fs in maths are...obselete. (laughs) anyhow, do you get my point?

there are other priorities in life. let's work on it shall we.

let's balance our academics and our social, spiritual life . sheesh its the big Os next year. so in the midst of my confusion, i'll just continue swimming in my 8 subjects. (BIG FAT IRONY)

bless.

and i hope she lived happily ever after 6:16 AM

About the Gurll
\\ Doreen aka Dory fish aka Gossipgirl.
Billabong and fruits basket comics collector.
3F 2005.
Misses 2A.
Pink addict. The colour. (:
Triple science hater. as in, really. HATER.
Lmao-er, lol-er, and southpark adorer

*tacotaco, tacotaco, my taco-flavoured kisseees!*


I'm not afraid of anything
I just need to know that I can breathe
And I don't need much of anything
But suddenly suddenly

i just want you to know
That I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there’s nights that never nnd

A Moment Please

Well, this is obviously a blog in memory of dory.
It's a place where her good friends have decided to remember her,
so please respect what we have to say here.
Dory was a terribly important part of our lives,
and we are shattered by the loss of such a vibrant person.
She was brave and perseverant,
and not once did we doubt her abilities.
We want to say that
dory was one of the best friends we could ever have,
and we love her a lot.

Gone from this earth,
But never from our hearts.


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